Sometimes We Cry

I heard this song today and really like the matter-of-fact-ness of the title.
Yeah, sometimes we cry.
It’s normal.
It’s not that bad.
It’s just something we do.
Sometimes.
And it doesn’t mean we’re depressed
or weird
or crazy.
It just means
sometimes
we cry.
I can almost hear myself repeating this to my daughter someday
when she gets her first scraped knee
or broken heart.

(Ughh, I can’t even imagine)
“It’s okay Annalee,
sometimes we cry.”
 
But only sometimes.
The rest of the time
we smile
and laugh
and try to forget
all the times we cried.
Sometimes we know, sometimes we don’t
Sometimes we give, sometimes we won’t
Sometimes we’re strong, sometimes we’re wrong
Sometimes we cry
Sometimes it’s bad when the going gets tough
When we look in the mirror and we want to give up
Sometimes we don’t even think we’ll try
Sometimes we cry

Well we’re gonna have to sit down and think it right through
If we’re only human what more can we do
The only thing to do is eat humble pie
Sometimes we cry

‘Fore they put me in a jacket, and they take me away
I’m not gonna fake it like Johnnie Ray
Sometimes we live, sometimes we die
Sometimes we cry

Sometimes we can’t see anything straight
Sometimes everybody is on the make
Sometimes it’s lonely on the lost highway
Sometimes we cry, sometimes we cry

Gonna put me in a jacket, and take me away
I’m not gonna fake it like Johnnie Ray
Sometimes we live, sometimes we die
Sometimes we cry, sometimes we cry

Sometimes we live, sometimes we die
Sometimes we cry, sometimes we cry 
*I love how you always remind me to love you, Van*

Spring break on the mind…

There is nothing better than…
…this.
And as of late my blogging world has been swapped for playdates with my little one
in the sun.
And for the next five days there will be plenty more…
Happy Spring Break, Easter,
 and bare feet in the grass!

It all started with a mud ball…

Today is one of those days where everything is cosmically connecting.
And it all started with a mud ball.
Let me go back to the beginning…
 
Today we read a story called “Polish Your Mud Balls” in Life is a Verb by Patti Digh. We read stories from the book a few times a week and complete the writing exercises that accompany them. The background on the book is that when one of my students, Angela Kania, passed away her mother gave me money to use towards Advanced Comp. because it was one of Angela’s favorite classes. She often wrote about “appreciating the small joys in life” so when I came across this book I knew it was the perfect way to have her legacy live on through our reading and writing about living “life as a verb.”
 
Today’s story was especially inspiring. You can read a version of it on the author’s blog here.
 
The whole point of the story is, Don’t seek perfection. Make messes. Play. Make a mud ball. Love what you are creating, even if it never shines, even if it cracks…don’t fear the showers of silt that make the mud balls of our lives shine.”
 
The mud balls are an excellent metaphor for life as Patti explains, “We polish on own lives, creating landscapes and canyons and peaks with the very silt we try to avoid, the dirt we disavow or hide or deny. It is the dirt of our lives–the depressions, the losses, the inequities, the failing grades in trigonometry, the e-mails sent in fear or hate or haste, the ways in which we encounter people different from us–that shape us, polish us to a heady sheen, make us in fact more beautiful, more elemental, more artful, more lasting.”
 
After we read the story, I had my students write three haiku’s….one about failure, one about perfection, and one about the beauty of dirt (and “dirt” could be a metaphor for all things sad, messy, or ugly in life).
 
At the end they realized that the poems about failure and “dirt” were just as beautiful, if not more, than those about perfection.
 
The more we talked about it, the more we thought it would be SO much fun to make our own mudballs….and then we thought, how much fun would it be to make them with the second graders we’ve been mentoring (who happen to be taught by our friend, MaDee’s, mother)?

So our plan is to teach the kids about mud balls, and the little metaphor for life that they hold, and then help them to make their own. We will write haiku’s with them about failure, perfection, dirt, and life in general during the process. In the end, each kid will have their very own mud ball, be it shiny, cracked, beautiful or flawed.

But it doesn’t end there. 
Our goal is to make a bunch of them, bag them up, and sell them at MaDee’s Market this fall, complete with a little tag explaining the metaphor of the mud ball and pictures of MaDee and Angela, who I know will be sitting together in heaven, smiling down on us as we teach these children and ourselves to appreciate the beauty in imperfection…the dirt of life. To play. To make a mess. To love what we create, even if it never shines, even if it cracks. 
To never fear the showers of silt that make the mud balls of our lives shine.
Cosmically connected? 
I think so. 
And don’t you just love it when that happens? 
I sure do.



2 Things + More

Two things I absolutely LOVE right now:
1. AJH giving the TIGHTEST hugs before bed. She literally wraps her arms around my neck so hard that I think she will never let go. And I secretly hope she doesn’t.
It’s the best thing in the world.
2. AJH spazzing with excitement about anything and everything. I have met my match, people. She shakes and squeals and giggles and throws her hands up and down even more than her mama. 
Pictures to come soon. You’ve gotta see these in action…
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In other news, I’ve been spending my spare time going for walks with the babe in which we seek out cows and pretty mountain views. Today we were dually lucky. 
 And she was LOVING it. 
I’ve been spending the rest of my time as a blogging/tweeting/technology machine. I’m working hard to keep the wedding blogs rolling on Where to Get Engaged while also teaching full time. I LOVE beautiful things and weddings are the perfect place to find them so it’s been a really fun opportunity for me. I’ve also been REALLY into twitter lately and love communicating with my favorite lady, @Posessionista,  about fashion, make-up and all things girlie. I’ve also been helping my very close friend from college get her fashion line off the ground! We’ve got her blog, Facebook page, and Etsy page up and running and she is ready to sell! I will link to her Etsy page once  we update the listings with professional photos and a few more dresses very soon!
In other big news, both Designs by Kara Kihm and myself will be vendors at the second annual MaDee’s Market this October. I will be will furiously making accessories for mama’s and babies between now and then in hopes of getting lots of sales for The MaDee Project! The MaDee project was formed in honor of our friend MaDee, and is a non profit foundation that provides support to local pediatric cancer patients and their families. The project will also nationally fund research in hopes of finding the cause and help to prevent pediatric cancers from reaching any other children. Kara will be designing a “MaDee” dress in MaDee’s favorite colors, brown and pink, to be debuted at the market. Back in our college days Kara and I did Relay for Life together and talked for hours about how we wanted to do more to help those suffering from cancer, so we feel very honored that years later this opportunity has been offered. Stay tuned for more details and consider supporting The MaDee Project however you can!
 {Happy almost weekend!}

Random Rituals + Etiquette

 We have a new morning ritual…
 Eating crackers in bed.
It’s pretty awesome.
Read more about it here on my fun little side blog with two friends across the country.
We also have a new afternoon ritual…
 Long walks in the neighborhood.
Which are equally awesome on days when the temps are well into the 80′s
with a cool breeze.
You can tell our girl is lovin’ some summer-time weather.
She literally sat in her “chill pose,” laid back with her leg up, singing along with the birdies the entire walk.
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And I don’t know about you, but in our circle of friends there are babies galore. In fact one of our close friends gave birth just a few days ago to an adorable little boy so when I came across this very helpful article via Dear Baby today it was very fitting. I think everyone should read it before going to visit a new mama. If you’re not a mama yet, you will probably read it and think, “This is so ridiculous…I know my friends will want me to stay more than 15 minutes…” but trust the author when she says, “…the mother is recovering physically, either from a surgical birth, or from the equivalent of a triathlon where the prize was a grapefuit sized head flying out of her vagina.  Either of these things makes you sore and tired. They would like to see you, but don’t want to be tired out by a long visit.”
Very informative!
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HAPPY MONDAY!
Hope you can enjoy some crackers in bed, long walks and new babies this week.
Love, P

Friday Fun Playlist

 Here are my favorite songs of the week!

1. Romeo and Juliet,Indigo Girls (the lyrics still give me chills)

2. Glory Days, Bruce Springsteen (a happy, fun, sing-along that never gets old!)
3. Head for the Hills/Will the Circle Be Unbroken, Goose Creek Symphony (if you haven’t invested some time in this band, do it…now!)
4. Pretty Mama/Hey, Good Lookin’, Goose Creek Symphony (I love pretty mama…)
5. Gone for Good, The Shins (a fun addition to my country tunes)
6. The Wind, Cat Stevens (from Almost Famous like so many of my favs)
7. Never Going Back Again, Fleetwood Mac (I love singing this song!!)
8. Think About It, Otis Redding (classic)
9. I’ve Got Dreams to Remember, Otis Redding (a beauty)
10. Bring it on Home to Me, Sam Cooke (original) or Wilson Pickett (sing this to your love)
11. Rivers of Babylon, Sublime (repeat offender)
12. Make You Feel My Love, Adele (she forces me to listen to these lyrics written by Bob Dylan)
13. Night Train, Amos Lee (love his voice)
14. The Perfect Space, The Avett Brothers (“I wanna fit in, to the perfect space, feel natural and safe in a volatile place”)
15. St. Joseph’s, The Avett Brothers (love this spontaneous version)
16. Whiter Shade of Pale, Procol Harum (another classic, love the hippie video)
17. Your Love, Emma Burgess (an 80′s remake of “I don’t wanna lose your love tonight…”)
Which one is your favorite?

Are you serious right now?

How cute are these baby shoes from Zara?

AJH is in need of something practical for walking…
but if she’s anything like her momma
all practicality will be thrown out the window at the sight of something shiny and fun. 
Which are your favorite?

Weekend Fun and Fashion

If you haven’t heard, AJH loves duckies.

The weekend after her Black Lab Birthday Party we had a Ducky Party with my side of the family who live about two hours away.My family really did it up with all the ducky decor and we even had a balloon send off at the end of the afternoon. We took over 200 pictures, but here are some of the highlights.

When we heard there was an actual (rubber) DUCKY RACE at a local festival we knew we had to take her. When we arrived we were a little saddened to see a very small crowd and only a few duckies barely making it downstream. I guess the wind and the current weren’t quite right, but all the kids cheered and AJH learned to say “Go, go!”

Finally one of the green duckies won the race and I think our own little “Ducky” had a pretty good time!

*FASHION*
When: Saturday, April 2nd

Where: Rosebud Festival (Ducky Race)
What: Country Casual
Tank top: Old Navy, jersey stretch tank in heather oatmeal, this season
Sweater: Ralph Lauren from the outlet, two winters ago
Jeans: William Rast Savoy in ultra low rise (which I got on accident and requires a belt…oops)
Boots and Belt: Vintage
Earrings: ceramic pieces from Cedar Hill Pottery


*Sunday I forgot to take pictures and Monday I had the day OFF so no pictures, either*

When: Tuesday, April 5, 2011

Where:Work (teaching high school)

What:
Dress: Target, winter 2011
Cardigan: Mossimo Supply Co. Boyfriend Cardigan sweater in Just Blush from Target
Leggings: from T.J. Maxx in grey
Earrings: silver Magnolia earrings from Premier Designs Jewelry
I wore the below Merona for Target Artist V-neck Cardigan in coral confetti to school and changed into the above sweater for dinner with our family. 
(I got a few stains on the below sweater today…oops!)
While enjoying a beautiful 80 degree day off on Monday, AJH and I went for a walk, went out to lunch, rode her trike and played fetch with Henry and Hokie. She got SO excited when Henry brought the ball back to her.
 Happy Spring!

Inspiration

I have been pretty inspired by the blog, The Extraordinary Ordinary, lately.

Today she wrote,

“I had breakfast with a dear friend of mine on Sunday. She’s never been a big social media fan but she admitted that she poured her heart out online recently and that it made her understand why I do what I do.  She said she just simply felt better, after her words were released, transparently and whole-heartedly.
It seems strange to say that something spiritual happens when a person does that on the Internet, but I think it does.  I don’t think it matters where we tell our truths, there is always freedom and connection in it.  Even from behind a screen where all people can really see of our lives is our words and a few carefully chosen photos.
…Please know, I realize people’s lives don’t revolve around these connections and shouldn’t.  I’m just simply acknowledging that there is chemistry here, zaps of light and validation and divine intervention between us all. Not in just this one place, but all over the worldwide interweb.  So it’s hard for any blogger to close up shop or take a break or start over.  It feels like an abrupt halt to being a part of something bigger than ourselves. And we all really really need to be a part of something bigger than ourselves in as many ways as we can.“  -From this post

This pretty summarizes why I do what I do. I (we) write and share because it simply makes us feel better…even if no one reads it, even if it’s not considered “good writing,” even if it’s sometimes silly.

Isn’t that enough?

And this quote from this post:
“…there are always only two choices…fear or faith.

I want to choose faith, and I think that means not only hoping, but truly believing, because there’s a difference between the two. It’s just a really subtle and utterly important difference.”

This reminds me of one of my favorite authors and spiritual leaders, Marianne Williamson, whose spirituality can be summarized with this phrase: I believe in love, not fear. It is only with love that fear can be pushed aside, making room for faith.

Thank you to Writing My Way Sober for letting us know about this inspiring blogging gem.
Pictures coming soon of AJH and fashion,
but for now,
I want to linger in the
connection
and the faith.

Friday Playlist + Fashion

 Here are a few songs I loved this week…

1. Just Breathe, Pearl Jam
2. The Ballad of Curtis Lowe, Lynyrd Skynyrd
3. Danny’s Song, Loggins and Messina
4. Soulshine, Gov’t Mule
5. Against the Wind, Bob Seger
6. Mona Lisa and Mad Hatters, Elton John
7. A Change is Gonna Come, Ben Sollee

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When: Friday, April 1st: Blue and White spirit day
Where: Work (teaching high school)
What: Casual Friday
Tank top: Old Navy this season
Cardigan: Old Navy V-Neck cardigan in gray combo, spring 2011
Jeans: William Rast Savoy with multi-color pocket
Boots and Belt: Vintage
Earrings: blue ceramic from Cedar Hill Pottery
 *sorry for the blurry pictures. I love the pockets on these jeans!

Happy Friday!